I am back!

                                

Hi! I’m back after few months of not checking my online diary.It’s nice to be back again here on blog sphere. Seems everything is new for me when I try to open my online diary and decide to write again. I was kind a busy  because of my job. I think I missed a lot of things in blog sphere and of course  I have so many things that I supposed to write lately but I haven’t enough time since I left my country and shift to a country where I am working now. Hope from now on  I will have enough time to update my blog and share my thoughts.  

Oh! how I miss writing. 

Belated Happy Mother's day to all mom around the globe

Hey ya'll. Happy to get a free time to check my blogsite. I have been busy and I don't have enough time to stay long online. I almost forgot it was Mother's day last sunday. Oh! I slept all day and woke up late afternoon. It never flashed on my mind that it was Mom's day around the globe.

Well, its better to be late than never,

 Happy Mother's Day to all Mom's all over the world.

To my mama, thanks for everything, for your never ending love and understanding even though I am far away from you from the bottom of my heart you are always there and you are always loved by me. You are the best mama and I am happy to have you as my mom.

To be with you again..

So I still walk on through the night and through the rain I would give it all Just to be with you again.
It's a lonely road for my heart is still in chains but I live my life just to be with you again.
We have walked together where angels go and we found a place inside us that only we could know..

How I wish I could get back those time.

I don't think you will ever fully understand how you've touched my life and made me who I am.
I don't think you could ever know just how truly special you are that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star. I don't think you will ever fully comprehend how you've made my dreams come true or how you've opened my heart to love and the wonders it can do.
You've allowed me to experience something very hard to find unconditional love that exists in my body, soul, and mind. I don't think you could ever feel all the love I have to give and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live. You are an amazing person and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life completes and fulfills every part of me. How I wish I could get back the time.
Thinking of you that's all I can say.. 

xoxo,

msM

Because we are...

If you kiss her, you are not a gentlemen

If you don't you're not a man

If you praise her, she thinks you are lying

if you dont, you are good for nothing

If you are agree to all her likes, you are a crimp

if you dont you are not understanding

If you visit her often she thinks you are boring

if you dont, she accused you of double crossing

If you are well dressed, she says you are a playboy

if you dont you are a dull boy

If you are jealous she says it is bad

if you dont she thinks you do not love her

If you attempt a romance she says you didnt respect her

if you dont she thinks you dont like her

If you are a minute late she complains its hard to wait

if she is late, she says thats the girls way

If you fail to help her crossing the streets you lack ethics

if you do, she thinks its just one of men's tactics of seduction

If you are staring at another woman, she accuses you of flirting

if she stared by another men, she says that they are just admiring

if she talks she wants you to listen

if you listen she wants you to talk

So simple yet so complex

so weak yet so powerful

So confusing yet so desirable

so damning yet so wonderful women!...

If

If only I could make you see
how much you mean to me
If only I could make you see
how special you make me feel

If only I could make you see
how perfect you are to me
If only I could make you see
how loving you does feel

If only I could make you see
how much you make me smile
If only I could make you see
how much I want you to be mine

If only I could make you see
that my love for you is real
If only I could make you see
that this is like a dream

If only you could make me see
that you are really real
If only you could make me see
that this is not just a dream

If only you could see these things through my eyes and mind
If only you could feel these things through my heart and soul

If All these Ifs may come true
you would finally see
that you're really meant for me
my endless love to be


xox,
ms.M

far away

The sheets are cold without you.
My hands have nothing to hold onto
when I feel as if I may fall
I'm slipping away..
Not wanting to stay awake but dream...
Memories of us still linger in the air
making it almost impossible to breathe

To dream of you as if it were yesterday into the past
warms the coldest space between my memories I don't want to lose those.

They are all I have to keep me breathing
Somewhere out there you are finding it hard to breathe also

To gaze upon something that reminds you of me
And me of you
But the empty space around me keeps me thinking of you
Wanting for you to fill it up

Painful tears cut through my existence
Through this space and straight into my heart
Souls that are not whole
lay inside us waiting to be revived

With your touch you can heat my frozen body
With your kiss you can bring my soul to life
With your hands you can hold me up
With your eyes you can make me see

We are one but apart we are only half
Not complete...Unfinished...Waiting
I hunger for you..without you I will starve
Save me!..Come home!

nice words, ilove it..:)



Note:

I feel sad tonight, thats the reason why I posted this.I just like the words. I don't know why I feel this way, it's really strange feeling being sad and lonely. I am starting to reminisce again, the past, the happy moments, the pains and the tears that i always shed all the time...ouch!.. be happy :) just missing someone who made me strong to face the reality of life..

a precious things that only your heart holds

Some things in life are more pecious than words can explain

Watching puddles move from drops of rain

The sounds of wave crashing against a rock, sunset reflection, a vision you can not block.

Whispers of wind blowing through tress

Walks through sand where you feel an ocean breeze,

Kittens purring in your ear,

These little things in life are so dear

A drive at night to watch the stars

Help your dreams seem not so far, soft hair of your teddy bear

A friend you know who will always care

The sound of new born baby's cry

The first time they open their eyes, a sweet smell of a yellow rose

This is something you will always know

A true love that you have found

You know your hearts will always bound

shellie sanchez

the best of both worlds and loneliness

The best of both worlds thats is what you said,

yet if that statement is true

why do I feel so bad???

I want some things I can not have

to be someplace I can not be

There is sadness, memories, some tears deep inside of me

I want to be with you

To see you standing outside my door

Will I self destruct by always wanting more???

Loneliness...

It is cold today, indeed the rain is falling and I am alone

Thoughts of life and love, meaningless to anyone but myself

I am alone

They watch me, their eyes not knowing

knowing nothing of what they see

I am but another creature, alone

They scury on teh surface, unaware

unaware of the life below when you are alone.

Loneliness, not a burden nor a sorrow but a time of solace

of deepness never to be shared

never to be understood

They can never reach the place when I am

And I know I dont want to reach tat place where they are

I know I dont want to reach that place

True happiness is here, unmisted

Unmisted by smiles or laughter

Unmisted by the joys of company

To find true happiness,

to know if one is truly happy

you must be happy alone....

hold the hand of the person whom you love..

A little girl and her father were crossing the bridge.

The Father was kind of scared, so he ask her little daughter; "Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you dont fall into the river", The little girl said: No dad you hold my hand."

What's the difference? Asked the puzzled Father.


There is a big diference; replied the little girl. "If I hold your hand and somethings happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I knew for sure that no matter what happens you will never let my hands go".





In any relationship the essence of trust is not in its bind but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather expecting them to hold yours...

Ah Ya Alby

ah! ya alby ah ya alby ah ya alby

da habibi garhy bizidoo
hayeltoo, bost ala ido
ya habibi garhy bizidoo

sabny w ban'i w yma'a lawa'ni
w leh maw'efshi gamby

ah ya alby ah alby ah ya alby

kont ayedloo sham'i
we byehlaloo dam'i
dal ekhlas fi tab'i we t'awedti aleh
welli m'aasar fiya
ennu mahashesh biya
badel eshra diya
bade ma honte alih




Oh my heart oh my heart oh my heart

my baby is increasing my injury
i pegged, i almost kissed his hand
my baby is increasing my injury
i pegeed, i almost kissed his hand

he left me and betryed me
why didnt he stayed by my side?

oh my heart oh my heart oh my heart

i used to enlighten my candles for him ( was obeying him)
he used to enjoy while im crying
this is loyalty in my personality and got used to it
what affected me the most
that he didnt feel me
after all these years
it was easy for him to leave me

as sweet as candies?? which one was the sweetest??

Loving many people all at the same time is like eating candies with different flavors....

it's fun because you get to taste all of them,

but once you're done... and when they're all gone,

can you tell, which candy was the sweetest?