far away

The sheets are cold without you.
My hands have nothing to hold onto
when I feel as if I may fall
I'm slipping away..
Not wanting to stay awake but dream...
Memories of us still linger in the air
making it almost impossible to breathe

To dream of you as if it were yesterday into the past
warms the coldest space between my memories I don't want to lose those.

They are all I have to keep me breathing
Somewhere out there you are finding it hard to breathe also

To gaze upon something that reminds you of me
And me of you
But the empty space around me keeps me thinking of you
Wanting for you to fill it up

Painful tears cut through my existence
Through this space and straight into my heart
Souls that are not whole
lay inside us waiting to be revived

With your touch you can heat my frozen body
With your kiss you can bring my soul to life
With your hands you can hold me up
With your eyes you can make me see

We are one but apart we are only half
Not complete...Unfinished...Waiting
I hunger for you..without you I will starve
Save me!..Come home!

nice words, ilove it..:)



Note:

I feel sad tonight, thats the reason why I posted this.I just like the words. I don't know why I feel this way, it's really strange feeling being sad and lonely. I am starting to reminisce again, the past, the happy moments, the pains and the tears that i always shed all the time...ouch!.. be happy :) just missing someone who made me strong to face the reality of life..

a precious things that only your heart holds

Some things in life are more pecious than words can explain

Watching puddles move from drops of rain

The sounds of wave crashing against a rock, sunset reflection, a vision you can not block.

Whispers of wind blowing through tress

Walks through sand where you feel an ocean breeze,

Kittens purring in your ear,

These little things in life are so dear

A drive at night to watch the stars

Help your dreams seem not so far, soft hair of your teddy bear

A friend you know who will always care

The sound of new born baby's cry

The first time they open their eyes, a sweet smell of a yellow rose

This is something you will always know

A true love that you have found

You know your hearts will always bound

shellie sanchez

you dont need a man to dance with you..

Pole dancing...
It is a form of performing art.. a combination of dancing and gymnastics.. with increased awareness of the benefits to general strenght and fitness.

a similar pole (chinese pole) is used in cabaret / circus and stage performance in  a non erotic environment, which is the style and moves are very different.

Advance pole dancing requires significant strenght, flexibilty and endurance. This form of exercise increased core and general body strenght by using the body itself as resistance while toning the body as a whole..

Pole dancing, which a single dancer performs sensual, graceful and acrobatic moves using a floor to ceiling metal pole as a support. In the past decade pole dancing has steadily gained acceptance as a form of exercise and personal expression and more recently as a form of competitive acrobratic dance, traditionally been performed by women with the move out of strip clubs and into gyms plus an increased emphasis on strength.

Pole dancing is now regarded as a recognized form of exercise and can be used as both aerobic and anaerobic workout.

Get Fit and feel Sexy,

all you need to have is a metal pole and a determination to learn this kind of exercise..

plans

Today I feel kinda bored. I slept all day, nothing to do outside, its almost 1 week now that always raining here, so I prefer to stay home, that makes me feel bored of not getting outside for how many days..lol. Im thinking of what to do in the coming months.. I wanna share my list of the things that Im planning to do..and here's the things that i want to accomplish and to do;

> to do well with my finals in univ. looking forward to, since im doing well this past terms, hope everything will ends well..

> to learn pole dancing or to enroll in pole dance class, after i watch pole dancing, i think its a nice exercise that can make the body look nice and healthy.

> to make a landscape for  a mini garden..ahhhmm..im thinking how am going to do it.

> thinking and planning about my future, well...well..

> to travel with special someone or with my friends or family

> to learn how to cook different kinds of cuisines (become a professional chef) and travel around the world for my profession.. why not??

> to have a kids when i reached the age of 32, yay! (in my dreams)

> to learn how to improve my weaknesses

> to be successful in any career path that im going to pursue.

>to be with someone whom i love :( .  sigh..

modern and contemporary design part2

I was feeling exhausted tonight.. my brain did not functioning well  because of migraine.

heres the continuation of what I posted yesterday..

 the lightning is nice

modern design with electronic bath tub..ahhhmmmm kinda interesting one

i like the details design of the wall

i like the combi of color..but dont like black ceiling

moroccan design

lovely bath tub..

i just love white

modern and contemporary designs

Today, while thinking some designs, i came up consulting mr. & mrs. g. ofcourse they're friend of all.

Last night Im thinking about house designs and this idea come  to the back of my mind..ahhmm..why not  try to check some contemporary and modern designs,

so heres the part 1 of designs that i like...

pink bathroom design - trendir

comtemporary rounded bathroom design cabinet

colorful designs

inspirational designs

modern lovely design with devine ideas

Yes,  Im fascinated by designs, i really do love designs and ideas.

 I love modern and contemporary designs.

A place where East meets West

Today, I feel kinda lonely and bored and I'm thinking of something to do and a place to visit where I can relax and be away from the hussle bustle city life. A place I called paradise. Indeed, a lovely place.

A paradise... a scenic cliff.. overlooking the white sand beach and the edge of headland that dips into the south china sea.. a luxury hotel in Northern region.

Incorporating Mediterranean architecture.. a resort boast of stylish and ambient luxury suites perched on 100 ft cliff. If you are a nature lover this place suite for you, a place where you can relax and at the same you will appreciate the beautiful nature around, offers relaxation concept complete with a hillside veranda, a lounge area and an outdoor spa, a meditterranean style fine dining and etc.. i really love this place.  

the best of both worlds and loneliness

The best of both worlds thats is what you said,

yet if that statement is true

why do I feel so bad???

I want some things I can not have

to be someplace I can not be

There is sadness, memories, some tears deep inside of me

I want to be with you

To see you standing outside my door

Will I self destruct by always wanting more???

Loneliness...

It is cold today, indeed the rain is falling and I am alone

Thoughts of life and love, meaningless to anyone but myself

I am alone

They watch me, their eyes not knowing

knowing nothing of what they see

I am but another creature, alone

They scury on teh surface, unaware

unaware of the life below when you are alone.

Loneliness, not a burden nor a sorrow but a time of solace

of deepness never to be shared

never to be understood

They can never reach the place when I am

And I know I dont want to reach tat place where they are

I know I dont want to reach that place

True happiness is here, unmisted

Unmisted by smiles or laughter

Unmisted by the joys of company

To find true happiness,

to know if one is truly happy

you must be happy alone....

In a gentle breeze... I wandered lonely as a cloud

I wandered lonely as a cloud thats floats on high over vales and hills

When all at once I saw a crowd

A host of golden daffodils, beside the lake, beneath the trees

Fluttering and dancing in the breeze..

A gentle breeze...

A gentle breeze began to flow creating music to one's ears

Whence it came no one knows, yet it takes away all our fears

Possesing such power and might as it steadily warms the cool air

Leaves dancing everywhere in sight magical essence to those who dare

A single gift of beauty to behold

the soft wind felt upon your face yet in its fury it can be so bold

not evry moment is satin and lace

It carries the fragrance of flowers blending aroma of spring so rare

Hard to believe in winter it devours

but for now it's splendor we share

The mystical wind is like life itself for it contains both good and bad

never found sitting idle on a shelf

it can make one HAPPY or forever SAD.

samuelestone

sweet tooth cravings

im a chocolate lover

chocolate is one of the most popular sweet tasting treats in the world and has been for centuries.

 health benefits of chocolate..positive and negative effects..

Cacao, the source of chocolate, contains antibacterial agents that fight tooth decay. Of course this is counteracted by the high sugar content of milk chocolate.

The smell of chocolate may increase theta brain waves, resulting in relaxation.

Chocolate contains phenyl ethylamine, a mild mood elevator.

The cocoa butter in chocolate contains oleic acid, a mono-unsaturated fat which may raise good cholesterol.

Drinking a cup of hot chocolate before meals may actually diminish appetite.

Men who eat chocolate live a year longer than those who don't.

The flavanoids in chocolate may help keep blood vessels elastic.

Chocolate increases antioxidant levels in the blood.

Mexican healers use chocolate to treat bronchitis and insect bites.

The carbohydrates in chocolate raise serotonin levels in the brain, resulting in a sense of well-being.


What Chocolate Won't Do:

Studies show that chocolate is not a causative factor in acne.

Cacao contains the stimulants caffeine and bromine, but in such small quantities that they don't cause nervous excitability.

Chocolate is not addictive.

Chocolate contains stearic acid, a neutral fat which doesn't raise bad cholesterol.

Chocolate doesn't make you 'high'. You'd need to eat a huge quantity (about 25lbs at one sitting) to feel any noticeable effect.


But On The Negative Side...

Chocolate may trigger headaches in migraine sufferers.

Milk chocolate is high in calories, saturated fat and sugar.

but i still love chocolates..