the best of both worlds and loneliness

The best of both worlds thats is what you said,

yet if that statement is true

why do I feel so bad???

I want some things I can not have

to be someplace I can not be

There is sadness, memories, some tears deep inside of me

I want to be with you

To see you standing outside my door

Will I self destruct by always wanting more???

Loneliness...

It is cold today, indeed the rain is falling and I am alone

Thoughts of life and love, meaningless to anyone but myself

I am alone

They watch me, their eyes not knowing

knowing nothing of what they see

I am but another creature, alone

They scury on teh surface, unaware

unaware of the life below when you are alone.

Loneliness, not a burden nor a sorrow but a time of solace

of deepness never to be shared

never to be understood

They can never reach the place when I am

And I know I dont want to reach tat place where they are

I know I dont want to reach that place

True happiness is here, unmisted

Unmisted by smiles or laughter

Unmisted by the joys of company

To find true happiness,

to know if one is truly happy

you must be happy alone....